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Boo to you!

Ahhhhhh……………….two days off from school for The Brothers.  Yiipppeeeee, no alarm clocks, packing lunches or homework drills.  Peaceful and relaxing?  UUUUHHHHH………………NO!  Why?  Hurricane Central.

Despite the weather, today I am contemplating if “I like to be scared?”  Not particularly………..NO!!!  After facing every parents WORST FEAR, I am not able to find the fun in being frightened.  Party, pooper………….perhaps.  Maybe not forever…………but for now.

I believe question is referring to HALLOWEEN fright night kind of scared but my focus has been shifted.

Halloween or Hurricane.  High winds, high diving boards, roller coasters, rolling tides………………..OH MY!!!  Not a fan.  I don’t know if it is so much FEAR rather FEARS partner in crime………………….ANXIETY.  I doubt I have had the chance to decide what my fears might be……….weeelllll………………..cause the thought of my fear makes me so anxious I become a wreck in the form of humming-bird on edge or cat on a hot tin roof.

My specialty seems to be things I have absolutely little to no control over.  Today I don’t think my anxiety has as much to do with a Hurricane as being trapped in a house with The Brothers during a Hurricane.  “When’s it coming, Mommy, are we still having Halloween………can I play on the computer? Can I have a snack?  What’s for dinner? Can we go to the costume store? When can I get a toy?  and so on………..and so on………….get the point?  Just reading this I’m feeling jumpy.

My relief………………running shoes.  Pounding the pavement to get the blood pumping, clear the mind, regulate my self-perpetuated craziness, organize my worries, and give my anxiety a MINI-holiday, if you will.  A win, win for all concerned.   Except, of course, today.  BECAUSE ……………..as my Johnny pointed out, “uuuhhh, Mommy, it is not a good idea to go running in a Hurricane.”  Smart Boy, that Johnny.

Sooooooooooo………….not wanting to ruin my new Nikes, nor strut my stuff in a wet suit, my hand has been forced.  I have been left no choice……………………………….weakness or weathering the storm?  YOU be the judge………..

Take that NIKE!!!

Brownies and elastic…………………..please and thank you!

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